Showing posts with label self-hate. Show all posts
Showing posts with label self-hate. Show all posts

Saturday, January 11, 2014

Gabrielle Union is Dumb and Stupid

If it is true, the stuff I read she said in an interview with Glamour Magazine; Gabrielle Union is dumb and stupid.

She takes full responsibility for Dwayne Wade sticking his raw penis into another woman and impregnating her. She claims due to her busy schedule and self-centered ways, she was unable to properly service him, therefore, he took a momentary break and broke old girl off another offspring.

Wow! Yeah, she is self-centered. I would dare say you almost have to be to be an actress. Yet, you do have a self. There should be a part of you that is not in the act. She is acting and it is bad acting. She is acting like a woman in control of her man, when in reality the man is controlling her every move and desire. She plucked this boy from his wife who was probably more suited to helping come into his manhood, only to end up looking like a damn fool ten years later.

Now, she has the audacity, at the height of her career, while she is crowned the Bell of the the Black Girls Ball; to spout such self-hate to a reporter of a major majority-read national magazine. What in the hell is wrong with her?

It is the same old issue. Oh yeah, hers has definitely turned into an issuation. She is going to have to do some intensive therapeutic sessions to work through the mounds of self-hate she has accumulated. I wish I could say I have sympathy for her. I do not.

This woman is 10 years older than Dwayne. Now 41, she plucked him at 21 cause she boasting about being together 10 years. Anyway, whatever, are you crazy, kiss my ass. Girl, you dumb and stupid.

In The Image of Him

Both the fathers of my children are in nursing homes. Well, one should be, but is too self-loathing to stay. His mind has not accepted that he has no legs, no real useful use of his hands, little strength in his arms.

The first is the father of my oldest daughter. I went crazy over him the moment I laid eyes on him. I tell the story in my autobiography, "Telling the Truth and Shaming the Devil."

He knocked on the side door. I looked out and saw the most gorgeous little man I had ever seen. He only stood 5'1", but boy his skin glowed and his eyes shown the innocence that was at his core.

"I am here to see Pam." He said boldly.

Just as bold with a tad more audaciousness, I said, "She told me about you. She don't like you. I am the one you need. You are beautiful. Look at your eyelashes. Are those real? Your skin is like gold. What's your name?"

The end.

He was mine for the time he wanted to be mine. I moved in with him and he began to feel like "a married man."

We had our baby boy moment and parted ways. I never looked back to this day. Now, his body represents what his mind experienced. Trauma and fear. Disconnect from the norm and loneliness.

The father of my two youngest children is suffering from an unbelievable amounts of illnesses. He was genetically predisposed to many of them, but his lifestyle was the real culprit. He ain't what he wanted, as much as he wanted. He had is liquor and beer. He had his smoke  and coke. He did his thang.
He excited me. He made me want to fly and I did for a long time. I got to do everything I wanted to because of his pseudo-support. I am a true testament to "You can't keep a good woman down." I made the best of every minute he gave me.

It was a "potential" thing with me. He is as smart as a whip and a master of disguise and innuendo. He would consistently try to outwit me after having done so once are twice. Those times I knew deep down; I was just lying to myself.

I saw all the things he could have done, while he just kept encouraging me to do more. Now, he is running from the life he so cleverly created. He's pissed because he is the forgotten one, the one no one can stomach for too long. Bitter and self-pitying; I barely recognize the man that was never there.

To both of them, I pray for God's will. I do not regret giving my all to either one of them. They both know they were loved and well taken care of on my watch.

Them brothers have some serious issuations.

Friday, November 29, 2013

What Is Your Issue?

I watched Al Sharpton's interview with Oprah and was glad to hear he had stood up to himself, said no and found a healthier way of life. His issue was clearly food. He ate fried chicken three times a day. It is a wonder he is alive.

We all have our issues. Food happens to be mine also. It was only when I told myself no that I was able to say yes to life. Most of us think our sin is better than an other's. We relish in our ability to manage being out of control. Al Sharpton most definitely was raging because he was starving himself. His body was not  getting what it needed to function properly.

For me, when I almost died from Pernicious Anemia, I woke up and began to take my health seriously. I was literally dying from a protein deficiency. Vitamin B-12 shots once a month sustain my life. It is absolutely amazing to me. I take several supplements, but the most important things I do for myself is I get rest, sleep and try to do all things in moderation.

Al Sharpton is being strict with himself which is a great things especially since he is so hard on others. He, as have I, have dealt with our demons and our lack of weight gain shows it. I recently began taking medication for a thyroid that should have been treated probably most of my life. with four weeks I lost eight pounds. When issues arise, we must tackle them before the become situations cause before you know it, you'll have an issuation on your hands.

What is your issue?